What If It Doesn’t Work?
When things starting to finally go in our own way, when things starting to look more beautiful and serene. When things starting to finally become better in your reality… we ought to find ourselves questioning, ‘What if it doesn’t work?’
I am completely happy with my life, it’s not perfect. It’s not a movie-kind of life that everyone fantasizes about, but despite of my simple, small but euphoric life, my brain always tends to question whether it will last and because of that, eventually, I’m starting to back off from the moment of bliss and drag myself back to my own black hole and lament over why I am not worthy of an everlasting happiness.
The thing is… We always put ourselves in a situation that doesn’t even happen. We are haunted by the inevitable change in our life and quickly sum things up that it will all fail and fall down to heartbreaks, tragic and even death. While it may be true that our endings will be an inevitable death…. I’ve come to realize that not our lives. Our lives will turn out the way how you want to turn it into. Our life will end the way how you wanted to (maybe not death) if you only look closer and pay attention to your beliefs and your own crooked truth.
Life has no guarantee! No matter how much we invest on something, be it on our insurance, job or someone we really love, there is no 100% guarantee that it won’t fail or they won’t leave us or cheat on us. The truth is, we cannot do anything about it. All we can do for now is carpe diem. Seize the day while it last. Stop stressing over the future like it is somehow promised. Enjoy your happiness while it’s still there and yes! It will change and gloomy and melancholy days are sure to happen but who cares?! Without those darker days we cannot be thankful for our bright and sunny days.
Be thankful it happens! Yes. There’s no assurance that our love ones won’t leave us, no guarantee that our special one won’t cheat on us. But that’s life! We cannot do something about that. All we can do now is love them unconditionally, enjoy your kisses, the cuddles and the sharing of a warm cup of coffee on a chilly autumn season. Enjoy every minute, of every day. And if it ever happens, god forbids, that they left us. Break down, cry, enjoy your comfort food, slowly move on and instead of holding a grudge on the other, be happy instead. Be thankful that for once, even on that very moment you were happy, you feel loved and secured, you were once in a cloud nine and for that, that memories will forever be inside of you no matter what happened. Because in this world, when people are full of sorrow and sadness, for once you feel treasured and that is more than enough to be thankful for.
Life won’t be always good to you and its okay. We have to accept that life can never be fair, that life is full of sacrifices and also see that it has its own rewards. I guess, the only advice I could give is that before you spend all of your emotional, physical, mental energy and financial aspect on someone and something, invest more on your well-being, invest more on yourself. It’s not being selfish, it’s being self-fulfilled because at the end of the day, when all things gets worse the only person we could ask for a hand is ourselves.